My Love-Hate Relationship with Evangelion – Part 1 (Neon Genesis / End of Evangelion)
I started working on the script for this like a month ago and now it’s finally done. I’ve always loved commentary stuff or video essays, and I wanted to give it a shot.
I worked very very hard on this, hope you guys enjoy 🙂
0:00 – Intro
2:08 – Neon Genesis Evangelion
8:40 – End of Evangelion
14:34 – Bloopers
14:59 – Next Episode
Music from Eva:
A Cruel Angel’s Thesis
Decisive Battle
Nerv
Barefoot in the Park
Rei II
Tokyo-3
The Final Decision We All Must Take
Good, or Don’t Be
Komm, Susser Tod
A Step Forward Into Terror
I. Shinji
II Air [Orchestral Suite No. 3 In D Major, BWV. 1068]
Jesus Bleibet Meine Freude
Next Episode
Other music:
Super Mario 64 Theme
Hydrocity Zone (Act 1) – Sonic Mania
sans – Undertale
April 20, 2021 @ 6:39 pm
Did I hear explosions?
April 20, 2021 @ 6:45 pm
YESSSSSSSSSSIR I LOVE ROBOTS AND MAGIC POWERS
April 20, 2021 @ 10:06 pm
this is a really good quality video.
April 20, 2021 @ 10:22 pm
This video really nice 👌👏
But I don’t understand 😪^^
April 20, 2021 @ 10:45 pm
WHAT A POGGERS VIDEO I SURE DO LOVE MY FAVORITE YOUTUBER MIKHARRYMAN
April 21, 2021 @ 12:05 am
I really like your commentary and analysis of the series, can’t wait for part 2
April 21, 2021 @ 12:26 am
“on what you thought”
April 21, 2021 @ 12:26 am
me when the
April 21, 2021 @ 12:27 am
empty the compartments of your pantaloons
April 21, 2021 @ 12:27 am
just based my master’s thesis off this vid 🙏
April 21, 2021 @ 12:27 am
for what purpose
April 21, 2021 @ 12:44 am
hyped for part 2!!!!!!
April 21, 2021 @ 12:34 pm
okay but why is ur editing rlly good
April 23, 2021 @ 11:09 am
first
July 16, 2021 @ 10:41 pm
Eva nearly drove me to suicide.
Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since.
Evangelion is nothing but a bright shining lie. There is no instant cure for depression as so many on YouTube and Reddit claimed and praised this series to be. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate this series which people treat larger than life, because of how much pain it resurfaces.
Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day.
Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic.
But it only spiraled me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now.
I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters.
But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way. No one should have to go through hell just to learn to love themselves. No one. But that’s what Eva teaches.
And that’s why I hate it.